Drowning in the Waves of Grief
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Waves crash over you, throwing body and mind
In chaotic directions of darkness and pain.
You were made for the land and so you hold your breath
As you claw your feet into the ground.
The currents pull you out deeper and deeper
Each gasp is met by another wave of details and emotions.
What do we do now?
“Gasp”
When should we have the funeral?
“Gasp”
Should I go back to work this week?
“Gasp”
How can I raise the kids on my own?
“Gasp”
Death and grief plunge you again into a foreign terrain
Where every breath is struggle.
You weren’t meant for this
Separation
Grief
Death.
You will never see them again
Except in the recesses of your mind where
Memories will be replaying
Scenes that become distorted by time and erosion.
The sleepless nights
“Gasp”
The disingenuous platitudes
“Gasp”
The religious cliches
“Gasp”
The loneliness
“Gasp”
Wave after wave.
You will not accept this.
You will never reach “acceptance”
Of the new normal that threatens the foundations of being
Foundations broken by the waves that rippled
When he/she fell into the depths of the oceans
Leaving you in the wake of the waves.
